I care little of the politics of the Belar, and I feel all the funny stuff we encountered with the gem trade was of their design. The sooner we can separate our selves from the leash they have given us the better I will feel. And there is no doubt that they play us for fool. And fool we all be.

The others think that Tera is of the Order of the Mystic Theurgists. With all her powers, she has demonstrated the Order.s principles. But is she the only Belar that follows this path? Or do they all and if so why I am being drawn toward it. Is this another of there tricks? But my mother gave me the book, and my devotions to my God gave me the powers to become his follower and chosen one. Is there something else, a compulsion or delusional power that the Belar use to control those beneath them? NO.my mind is fill often now with paranoia, and I must shake this to live a life of my own.

The word friend means: A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade; a person whom one knows, likes, and trusts. Is this now how I see the others, Friends, Comrade, Allies? Have our struggles and conquest brought us to the point were we might say we are friends? I ponder this more now after the deaths of Kestrel and Blink. What bonds have we formed? Do the others feel the same? If they do not feel the same then can I call each friend? Can one side form a friendship that the other does not recognize? Do I think that under the definition, that I would consider each of them a friend? My animal companion I readily call friends, and have so from the start. Why is it then that I find myself unable to call someone a friend? Is it because I cannot give my full trust to someone that will eventually turn against me or disappear? Or is it something deeper, something I have yet to call to name.