J came and talked to me before she left and it is strange but I felt for the first time I had a friend that actually cared for me and treated me more like a person than a kept beast. She had a few words of advice to, but how can I leave here and move on?

I have met the woman that has been watching me and now I am more confused than ever. Her name is Constance and she is a Lady of the royal court. I now know that she is a widow of Louis, the ruler's second son, who death is still a mystery. She asked me if I known her husband and what I thought of him. I had to tell her that I did not know of him, only that he was the ruler's son. She was unhappy at this but I could not reason why, I was only a stable hand. We had tea together then I return to my work. The pain of her loss has hurt me in a way I can not describe, how can I feel for a women I do not even know?

I received a letter today from my mother and I do not know how to take it. It was left in my room and the seal was unbroken. At first I wanted to only rid myself of her memory but I lacked the strength and I longed to see what she had to say after all these years. The letter left little in my mind of her but I now know she has been looking out after me, but why can she not come to me and see the man I have become? I am still conflicted that she seems so close but has left me here in this place and not even tried to see me. How I want to loath this woman.

When I read the book today I noticed the writing was similar to that of my mothers. I took her letter and compared it to the book's own writing and found it is very similar. I know she told me to destroy the letter but I can not. The armor, book and her letter are my only links to her.

Ann-Marie returns today from her travel to the north. She saw me in the street by chance and came up to me and asked how I had been. She is a very pretty young woman with those ruby lips and a smile that stills hearts. She told me trade to the north was good but that there are numerous rumors of highway robbers. I told her that I was glad that she was safe and we ate together in a small inn. She had to leave early the next day but said she be in the area soon. When she left I missed her without really understanding why.

Ah the group has return from their adventuring and asks me to travel with them I accept and was swept up in a grand adventure that put a local smuggle operation out of business. I felt good again to be on the road. Midnight was happy to be out me thinks too.

What path lies before me I do not know, but I feel the threads of fate are bound and woven with the others. There is a big plot that is slowly being revealed to us, there is a dark danger that lies ahead, I can only hope we can overcome till we find out the complete picture.